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wow this entry is long over due. bleh. im 22!! yay!!! i had the best birthday and im gonna remember it forever. on the day of my birthday Jay was so good to me. huaw...i like his like that. went to lunch with my family...brother was there too =X eeeek. my mom and brother are still not talking but at least they are able to stay in the same room. so Jay and I hung out at my house and then we went with my brother and grandparents to get shave ice and bolba drinks. the lady is so nice at the place i should keep going there. afterwards Jay and i went to vbar to meet up with So, Pihay and Andy. vbar is a cool place. i like the lighting around the back and the hanging balls walking in. haha. then afterwards we went down to blowfish sushi. mmmm i love the pyramid tar tar. ive never been there when the place was so empty during the day but it was nice cuz there wasnt loud annoying music playing. i wanted raheem to comp the meal but he already left. im still waiting for my endless supply of sushi he promised me.... maybe i should tell him to bring some home. So anyway, my brother is kinda living with him now cuz he doesnt want to be home. it's fine with me. i always thought about how hes sort of a prisoner in our house cuz hes always getting calls from my mom cuz she trips about him waaaay to much. my mom doesnt call me anymore when i go out. i told her that im responsible and i can handle myself so i dont need her to worry so much. was that a mean thing to say? well i just dont want to be getting calls at like 1130 to go home when i just barely went out. i dont know. maybe when i am a mother i will understand her more and I'll go crazy when my children are out and about. but i havent given her any reason at all for her to think that im doing bad bad things. besides, Jay and i are both responsible and we know when we are doing. i wouldnt want to do anything to mess up the plan that i have for myself. anyways...
after blowfish went to House of Genji. its really big in there. lots of stoves. house of genji is a japanese steakhouse where they cook in front of you and they put a show on. like Benihanas. So the place wasnt that full and one table already had four people seated. my brother, didnt want to sit with a bunch of random strangers becuase then we wouldnt be able to talk. so he had to talk to the manager and they said we had to because there were 8 meals for one table. so my brother was like "well then ill buy 8 meals." oh my God. so we had a whole table to our selves. =) that was cool cuz there was so much food!!!
then afterwards we went to the apartment and my brother and i were talking about the beach house trip that all the cousins and significant others are taking next month. i was telling him about this one house that i thought was really good because its over 3000sq feet and 4 bedrooms. theres goin to be about 12 of us and i think my older girl cousin is going to have some stuff planned. kinda weird cuz its like a retreat. but totally cool cuz we re all grown and we can do things like this now. i think im the cut off age. haha. yay. jay is excited to. he doesnt have that many cousins that are around his age and most of them are boring. lol oh well. So after the apartment went to dave n busters to meet with them again and dee too. omg there was so many people there it was crazy. then afterwards jay and i went home. overall i had a great day because i was super happy the whole time.
on Friday started with Allie and Kayla. whew..they arent so terrible as i imagined. they are actually really good. Alli is so cute!!! she talks as if she has candy in her mouth cuz she pronounces every thing so slowly but she is still very very smart. Kayla is kinda bossy and her dad told me to watch out for that. im totally nice in the beginning because i want them to like me but if they try to boss me around...haha ....joe on them!!!! lol no i mean i know what to say to them so they will still do things my way and if they do anything or ask for anything thats like wtf....i dont show them im like wtf i just make them do another thing. or we negotiate. otherwise i have the upperhand. thats how its suppose to be. so anyways i picked them up at school and then we were making plans for Kaylas bday party. i took the girls to toys R us to get some treasure hunt toys and candy. she wanted a pinata but i told her she had to ask her dad about it. when we came home it was about 6 and i had to leave. i left there feeling like i was going to enjoy working with them.....which was not the same feeling i got when i left Janes house the first day.
So I went home and I rested for a bit and went to dees house. We went to go rent movies and got some food. I had fun just kickin it with the girls.
The next day was my party at Asia SF. Wow I was having so much fun the end of the night. Eeek. Too much crazy stuff to put on here but I loved it. yay for being 22 now!!! On Sunday…my oh my….gerry sent me a card and Jay found it. =X I was so sad Sunday morning cuz I felt like jay was such a downer. Well to make a long story short. We had like a 3 and a half hour talk and every thing is all good again. My my my…..ok well this is super long and I need to get ready now. Hopefully ill update again later on this week.
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Im at a good point in my life right now. Lucky me.
I wish everyone can say that at one point. Life is good. Im making lemonade. =o)
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im all done with my thesis!!!! eeeek. im so happy. omg this is such a great feeling... like im on drugs or something. all i gotta do now is print out this biotch and turn it to my profesor. woot woot. im playing the pomp and circumstance song. haha is that what its called??? i dont know. im very proud of me. yay
oh and that drama with jay....that still isnt over im not worried about it though. i came up with the outcome and we're going to talk about it more when he comes home. bleh.....
i still have 3 more finals. maybe my psychopharmcology test wont be as bad as i think (wishful thinking). im ready.
MAY 15!!! woot woot graduation day. omg thats next weekend already. wow. all this hard work now i finally get my degree. i had fun along the way, and this isnt the end. eeeek. ill miss my friends at dominican.
come what may...
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Wow what a day. I just had a very nice relaxing bath. Sometimes i forget to take time out for myself. i really need to becuase then i feel like im spreading myself out too thin. i can do that at times. i have so much to do these upcoming weeks until graduation and i dont even know where to begin. just even taking the time out to meditate or breath deeply would be good enough to relax me a bit. So i drew a bath for myself. i put some Norah Jones and Enya on and lit 5 candles. The five candles represent the 5 stressful days that i have during the week. i laid in my bath and i just let my mind drift. next week i have a total of SEVEN papers due!!!! is that possible?? yeah..i tried not to think about that during my bath. norah jones is so relaxing. i swear she reminds me of this one girl i used to know when i was younger. So today i drove back up from Salinas. Jay and i didnt go to bed until like 2 and he had to wake up at 630 for work. blah. i was mega sleepy. he was pissed this morning cuz his aunt stole the remote batteries....while we were sleeping. weird. then when we got to gilroy i was really tired but i had to drive back up. jay got me a breakfast burrito =). He has a day off on tursday...hopefully.....i say hopefully cuz sometimes last minute they tell him he has to work. grr. yeah that happens a lot so im not holding my breath. but hes gonna be gone to the army for 2 weeks again. hes leaving on friday and hes also missing penguin ball. damnit. my senior penguin ball....and hes not going to be there!!!!! at least hes going to be here in time for my graduation. anyway today i had class at 215 and i had a doctor appointment at 345...ewwwww i hate "those" appointments. growdy balls. i went home and it was almost SPDI meeting but i still had to cook and i didnt have time to go anymore. Jay sensed that i was feeling icky so e suggested i take my relaxing bath. yay
Sunday-went to church. i was waiting for broham but he got out late from the gas sattion waiting for gerry to get there and i had to get my clothes out of my car. this is the 2nd week that my clothes were left in the car. grr. its ok though cuz its a good thing i didnt sit with my mom.....(story later) so i got out and ebil and jaime were already down and they were with rich. my brother wanted to go to lunch to maggianos..and i was like cool..you can pay for me. eek. haha. oooh the food was so good. we ordered the family plan and it just kept coming. omg i had so much calamari. my brother and i were laughing cuz we ate most of it and we kept asking for refills. and jaime..daaaaang does he like his lasagna. lol he tore that up. ooh and the creme brule. yummm. and nanas cake. mmmm... so i dropped my bro back off but before then we were hiding jay cuz i just had to go home and change right quick. my uhhh aunt and uncle was there.....blah..i dont particularly like them..so i didnt say nice things.. what ever though. i dont care cuz all they can do is say negative things. my brother feels the same way and he kinda told them off. haha. So Jay and i went back to valleyfair cuz the rest of them were already there. then we got more bolba..lol. and then went to watch a movie. all in all during the DAY was cool.....not until i cam home was when i was like wtf. ..So i came home and i was gonna get ready to leave school/jay's really fast cuz he was waiting for me. my grandparents where also there waiting for me to get home. my mom asked me if i wanted something to eat but i told her i was full. then when i had all my stuff downstairs and i was about to load up my car i went to the kitchen and i was like.."oooh" cuz there was soemthing that i liked that they cooked. and then my mom was like.. "no dont eat. your gonna get fat." im like wtf you just asked a while ago if i was hungry and you were going to feed me andall but now im like too fat? grr. so i wa slike whatever then. then when i was about to leave i was hugging everyone goodbye and my mom again says, "why do you like wearing those? it looks like a hookers." shes referring to the hoop earring tha not i was wearing. i was like what. no. and then my dad heard. and my dad was like, "mom it's the style. let her wear what she wants." and shes like "no its ugly, they're not even real." i didnt say anything i was like whatever get me outta here. she was hella talking about my earrings and its like.... who the hell cares???? i mean its not her style and i know she owuldnt wear them but like what is the big freaking deal??? so like my mom and dad were arguing over my freakin earrings. i left. met jay up and told him what had happened. i was pissed. i called my brother and told him that i dont want to live at home and that our mom is crazy. shes trippin. i know everyone has moments like this with their parent. i know i should be thankful that she cares and supports me. i am. i just dont understand sometimes how i dont even do anything wrong and im getting in trouble or getting yelled at. i should talk ghetto to her. haha she'll be like..huh?? what are you saying? haha funny thought.
saturday- went home. kinda late cuz i wasnt anxious to get there so early. i went with m dad to lexus dealership to sign for the car we got last month. apparently i didnt sign all the forms...but i signed all the forms that were in front of me. so we also checked out my car that im getting in less than a month woohoo!!!! bmw 5 series. eeek. cant wait. then i just waited for jay to get off work cuz we needed to run errands before we went to dees house. we went to look at the space that my brother was thinking of getting at gmall.. hmmm. mext to great khanhs??? shoooooot. haha. then we went to watch Kill Bill vol.2. its was freaking hilarious. haha. SHE POPPED THAT GIRLS EYE WITH HER BIG TOE!!! hahahhaha. jay and i were hella laughing at the pai mei guy too. woot woot. i wanna see it again. then we went to Dee's house. H and i were pretending that wilson and dee were our parents cooking us food. haha. good food. good friends. good rook. haha. jk. shhhh. <3 mchwvvg!!
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Only two more months at DU!!! eeekk!! man what a journey this has been for me. learing and growing and i wouldnt trade it for anything else. my experience at Dominican is such an important part of who i am now. after i graduate, im kind of scurred of what is going to happen. be an adult? awww shucks.... well im almost ready. i knew the time would eventually come. there is so much i want to say about my college career but i know its going to be forever to be continue. i just wanted to say that all my friends and the people that has helped me an supported me along the way, thank you so much for your words of advice, company, and shoulders to cry on. I love you all!!!
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i had such a great night last night!!! jay came over and we went to valleyfair cuz we needed to go for a couple of things. we were talking all about vegas and we passed by steve madden. oh my gosh im so glad i didnt get the boots when they were 100 cuz they were on super sale when we went 50% off and buy 2 get the third free!!! shooot you better believe i took advantage of this sale. eeeek!!! shoes shoes shoes!!! im giddy. i havent gone shoe shopping in a while.
so afterwards we walked around and we decided to eat at the food court. i was making fun of jay so i decided not to eat and he got all pissy. later on i wished i did eat cuz i was hella feening for great khanhs. mmmmmm so yeah my great night was becuase of the boots and shoes that i bought. not so much the arguing with jay. but shoes!! yay. haha
i need to go do tae bo now.
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jay is back!!! Yay! im trying to soak him up as much as i can before he has to leave again. i dont know where he would have to go next, but the army is so unpredictable i never know when. we went hella shopping these past couple days. shopping for vegas. yay. how fun. i cant wait. less then a month left.
i have super work to do before vegas though. i need to see vegas as my reward once i finish all the work to do. 3 tests this week!!! dear god help me. im just waiting for the first part of midterms to finish. psycopharmacology is confusing but last wednesday i really understood what the lecture was about and what people were asking. it was like a light that went off and i was like.. oooh i get it now!! cool beans. now as for this week i had work on monday tuesday and wednesday and friday. i picked jay up early on tuesday in san jose. it was hella raining. im not scared of driving in the rain but i get scared when i cant see and my wipers dont wipe fast enough. then once i picked him up we had to turn around and go back up to san raf. i was late to my class and i was unable to turn in my journal. i was sorta annoyed but i was glad to have him back. when i first saw him by the curb i got butterflies. then i got hot. not hot like horny but hot like i was hot all of a sudden even though it was hella cold outside and hella raining. when i saw him i think my heart jumped. yea its always like that when i see him again. its kinda cool. i dont think ill ever get bored of it.
so we made it back to san raf and i had another class to go to. directed research is beter this semester cuz we spend all the time in th lab and it goes by quickly. i jus spent most of the time looking at shoes. lol
working at the daycare is fun. dang that family is so crazy!! the dad reminds me of my crazy drunk uncle. haha. i like the kids though. its not as hectic as it was a RB. better pay too. i wanna have a daycare someday. i would love it. *sigh...yeah but for now i just wanna gain experience so i can get there and my husband can work. haha. oh and he has to do laundry!!! i dont know how to. haha. i mean i can fold and iron but i just dont like the act of doing laundry.
ok this is sorta a pointles entry. i jus wanted to type away. i hope we go out tonight and do something fun. its been a long time since i went out.
oh yeah i read this quote and i really like it. "the man who hopes has everything." we talked about this in class. i wanted to talk about my walter poem but mollie is a chatterbox we didnt have enough time.
life is too short
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aaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! school is driving me crazy but im still trying to enjoy it, being m last semester and all. grrr
Jay left for washington today =/ he'll be home after his seret mission. haha. then when he gets back it will be my spring break. yay!!!!
i have to go to the tore with me mom real quick so ill finish later.
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another day another dollar..actually.. it’s a Sunday so I don’t work today. But tomorrow im going to meet the girl who im going to tutor. 20/hour….hell yea!!! Woohoo. An plus my other babysitting jobs. I jus gotta raise money for the trips that im gonna take in the spring. Las vegas with jay and vegas with my friends. Yay. Wow I never been to vegas so much before. I mean before this I was only there once when I was like seven years old.. and then again for Christmas. It was fun. I think im gonna have more fun with jay and friends.. eeek everone is going!!! Dee, so, heather, huong, umm and the guys….and when I go with jay I know its gonn abe crazy too because his family is so crazy. Eeek.
Anyways.. so last night we went out. First we went to dees house. I love pound cake!!! Haha and dee and I were taking shots and chasing it with peanuts. Haha. Henny is so gross to me now. I didn’t even feel really buzzed and we took about 5 shots. Then heather and huong came. Then the guys. Im referring them to as “the guys” cuz like there was about 7 of them an I really only know of 5 of them so those other two that I don know just refers to the whole group as the guys. Haha ok anyways so we were drinking a lil more at dees house and then finally like almost 12 we were there. We went to find the temple and then it sucked so we went to san jose bar and grill. It was cool I never been to either one of those bars before. Heather looked really drunk. Then we went to la Victoria/jack in the crack. Im never going to eat at la vics!!!!! Ever since that one day when So and I went and there was some in her freakin burrito…ewww its so gross.
I was tired after we ate at jack in the crack so after we went home. Overall I had fun. Oh yeah..during the night H hella yelled at quynh! Hahah it was funny. He was hella quite after that. He talks too much. I don’t know why but hes up there with the annoying people that I have ever encountered with. Haha. While we were walking out of the parking garage….the group of guys were already outside and he yelled out,”hey bitches!” wtf is that? I need to be mean to him like H cuz no way is he going to talk to me like that. Heather is funny when shes drunk. I had fun last night. I cant wait till Vegas. Eeeek. Im not going to sleep. Im just gonna pull all nighters. Woohoo!! Im giddy =)
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school is for fools!!! boo. im tired of school already....oh gosh last night i couldnt go to sleep. i was planning to wake up early to go to sprint and then go to my doctors appointment. that didnt happen. i just left to go to PP. But in the morning while i was snoozing....i had the weirdest dreams!!! i dreamt of drugs and weddings and parties. im trippin i know.
So i went to my appointment at 11am and waited forever. they said they were behind 30-45 mins behind. grrr. i really hate going there but i have to get my ill.....then i went to the sprint store to go see what was wrong with my phone. it hasnt been charging and i barely had anymore battery. anyways i went and the guy hooked me up with a new phone!! eeek. i had to return because he was transfering all my phone info back. So i was all excited with my new phone and i had class at 215. there is so many people in that class. gosh. and the room is so small.
anyways...jay and i have a journal together...JaynArl on here. im probably just going to say the sae thing..plus mushy stuff about him. haha corny. ok
to be countinued...
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wow when was the last time? dang its been forever. well recap on summer until now. jay was in texas for about four months. i went to texas. i had the hardest semester of my life so far....im saying so far cuz i still have one more to go until i graduate. sheesh. im just trying to graduate. i have my own apartment. no roomies!!! eeeek!! i freakin love it!!! allllll mine. i dont have to worry about coming to a messy apartment, a mess that i didnt create. yes. all the mess is MY MESS. I love being the entertainer. The hostess. The chef. I love having people over. I feel so grown-up. Sorta like when I first started college. A lil freshman. As lil as I was, I grew up so much that year. I found out the meaning of friendship and what it means to have people you can truly call your friends. I had a blast my freshman sophomore year. It was too fast. I wish I could have enjoyed it more. I had obstacles but I managed to deal with it my own way.
Anyway…freshman year compared to now.. wow!!! I cant believe my college years are almost up and its just down to this last semester. I guess this semester has been tough because of many mixed feelings that I think about while being alone in my apartment. I think about how much my life will change after I graduate, what will be my career after I graduate, my friends at school and enjoying the time that I have left with them, my friends back home and making time for them, my relationship with jay, basically, just sorting out what is coming ahead. Im scared. Scared cuz for the past 16 years ive been in school. That’s what ive been doing. And like now….when im done with school, im suppose to go out and be an adult. With bills!!! Aaaahhh. Well bills aren’t that bad. I feel really grown up when I finally pay them off.
So this semester ive just enjoyed my time with friends and enjoyed my internship. It was fun. Crazy kids. When jay came back home my spirit was lifted. I hella missed him while he was gone. I enjoy the time we spend together because I never know when it will change again. We’re getting closer. Im so happy. Im thankful. On Christmas its going to be our 1 year. Eeeeek! Wow. Hes so good to me.
This Christmas break we’ve been seeing each other at least once a week. I cant wait until we can decorate our own place together. Pottery barn for kids.
This is probably the most random entries but this is a catch up on the things that have been happening so I don’t really care. Jay and I working on being closer. Why? Well we wanna know more about each other. I mean like feel connected. We are already. But I wanna feel super connected, like knowing how he feels in each situation so that I know what to say to him so that he would feel better. Couples that know each other really well are connected like that. It’s a great feeling. Im lucky to have him in my life.
So its almost Christmas and boy has a lot changes with family traditions this year. For the first time since I can remember, I am not going to the annual Christmas party that goes on with my moms side and my dads side. Long story. Instead im going to be spending it in vegas. Yay. I haven’t been there for so long. I can finally gamble. Yay. Im hoping to win. Haha.
Happy Anniversary Jay. I love you. Many more to come.
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im sad. i miss jay. i think im going to get my rag soon. grrr
life sucks right now. im not in the mood to elaborate on it much but jay and i havent talked to each other as much as we used to. we dont have our dep conversations anymore. i dont know how its going to be like when he gets back.
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havent wrote in this for awhile...i've been on friendster.haha
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life sucks right now....i wish i didnt find out about the things that will tear everything apart. now that i started investigating....im afraid to find out more.
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